I did my first Peyote ceremony this weekend, and it was absolutely amazing!
Compared to Ayahuasca, the taste is pretty easy to get down, and the ceremony itself is much gentler.
I experienced a lot of internal processing, like emotional healing and inner child work, but it was so gentle it didn’t feel overwhelming at all.
The medicine just lead me to the healing I needed, and walked me through the process like a series of day dreams playing out in my mind. It wasn’t trippy at all like other psychedelics. It was more of an internal “knowing”.
This was done with a Native American Church I was invited to, so there was lots of singing and praying, and afterwards we had a sweat lodge, which felt super refreshing!
I highly recommend trying this if you ever get a chance, it’s an amazing form of Heart medicine.

New Years Ayahuasca Ceremony

I did an Ayahuasca ceremony for New Years.
Here I’ll share a bit of my insights:


About 25 minutes after drinking the brew, I started to feel nauseous.
I used a breathing technique like breath of fire, where I do several rapid breaths, to ease the nausea and prevent myself from purging too quickly.
Every time I do this, the medicine goes much deeper into the brain, because I didn’t throw it up too soon.
It’s interesting when this happens because I could actually see inside my brain, and feel the really deep blockages being released.


I keep a bunch of crystals next to my bed, so I intuitively grabbed one and put it to my third eye.
This is a nice way to communicate with the crystals, and receive whatever insights they carry.
One of the things I saw is that in the astral realm, I do the work of a grim reaper.
I carry souls to the next dimension when they pass away, just like a farmer harvesting crops when they ripen. I harvest souls when they’re ready.
I do this, as well as many other things, in the astral realm when I sleep.


Once the medicine really started to kick in, I actually met Ayahuasca as three different people. They were all feminine spirits, but each one had its own personality.
I had a conversation with each one, and they helped me get to the root of my fears. And then we went even further, to the root of the root, and the root of that, and the root of that, as deeply as I needed to go.
I’m usually afraid to face my fears, but I was surprised at how easy and effortless it was to follow the chord as one continual string.

After about 2 hours I drank a second dose.

I don’t know if this is obvious to most people, but it is incredibly important to take notes before, during, and after every ceremony.
This is not just for Aya, but any other ceremony as well.
It’s become second nature for me to always have pen and paper nearby whenever I do ceremony.
In addition to writing down any important insights, I’ll often receive more, and go even deeper into the insights, if I write it down in a journal.
There’s always part 2, or even part 10 to what you’re receiving, if you write it down or record it in some way.
For some reason that I can’t explain, doing this stimulates a different part of the brain than just thinking about it.
Journaling will help you process everything more deeply.
This has been the case for me, so I suspect it may be the case for many others who haven’t realized it yet.

At one moment during the ceremony, I intuitively started drawing some of the visuals I was seeing.

I also connected with some extra terrestrial entities on another planet.
I learned that often times if two beings are unable to connect (because they’re a different species, or incompatible in some way), they can choose to create an avatar of themselves in another dimension, where they incarnate as the same species so they are able to connect with one another.
This is what you’re seeing in several cases with “soul mates”.
There may be one specific person who is a perfect match to you, because you both chose to incarnate here in order to become partners.
The two beings were unable to connect in their original state, so the two decided to incarnate in another dimension where their energy is more alike, and they could choose to become partners.

This ceremony was actually kind of light, and there were a few moments where it felt like nothing’s happening.
I was reminded during those times that it may take a bit of intentional effort in order to get the ball rolling.
Aya doesn’t always just talk and give you all the answers. I have to actually ask the questions, or use my mind to visualize something, and she will show me more once I produce my own momentum.
This isn’t always the case, but if you ever find yourself stuck, and it seems like nothing’s happening, she may actually be waiting for you to make the first move.
Her voice may be subtle enough that you only perceive it when you shake things up a bit, and allow her light to shimmer.

Sapo Frog Venom


When it comes to detoxing and holistic remedies, “ordeal medicine” is unique in the way it promotes wellness and health.
Within the Amazon rain forest resides a particular frog, which due to its healing properties, is used as a traditional form of medicine by the indigenous people.
The Phyllomedusa Bicolor frog, also known by the names Sapo and Kambo, secretes a toxin from it’s skin, which ironically is used for healing.

Here’s how it works – The frog releases a toxin, which is scraped off and collected on a wooden stick.
When desired to use, a facilitator will apply this toxin to a persons body, via burn marks on the arm or leg. A burning hot stick is used to burn dots on the top layer of skin, called points, and the frog poison is applied to the exposed burn mark.
This allows the venom to go directly into the bloodstream through the capillaries of the skin.
After doing so, the body’s immune system fires up in order to flush out the venom, which simultaneously removes any other toxins accumulated over the years throughout the organs and body tissue.
This allows your body to clean itself out, because it’s trying to get rid of the toxic venom. In doing this, you remove the physical impurities from the body, but it’s also a great way to heal the emotional body from stored trauma, as well as clear any blockages in the energy meridians.

Often called an ordeal medicine, this is a painful process which is known to heal the body by forcing it to remove anything unwanted. In most cases, this purging process is done by vomiting.
The frog poison is kept on the burn marks for 15 minutes, after which it is removed, and the person returns to normal.

After hearing about Sapo, I decided to give it a try for myself, and I was happy to learn that one of my friends actually facilitates this medicine very close by.
I discovered that there are two methods of going about this – Sapo and Kambo.
Both methods utilize venom from the same frog, but the Kambo version is a bit lighter.
Sapo is the name of the traditional ceremony of the Peruvian Matses tribe. Kambo is a newer, more modernized version, which uses much lighter applications through smaller burn marks, as well as drinking lots of water before applying the medicine, so you’re mostly just vomiting up water.
The theory I’ve been told is that this isn’t good because the purge shouldn’t be light and easy. When using the Sapo method, it’s a deep hard purge and 99% of the time it’s bile, which is used to filter toxins. By purging this out, you’re getting rid of all the old junk, which gives your body a chance to make clean replacement bile.
Also, not everyone needs to purge, so by skipping the water, the medicine is able to work deeply wherever it needs to, instead of just making you throw up a bunch of water.
Kambo also uses water to rehydrate the frog venom, which makes it weaker. The Sapo method uses saliva, which helps reliven alot of the peptides and makes it stronger.
I’ve heard it said that one Sapo point is the equivalent to doing five Kambo points.

My first time using this medicine was actually on my birthday in October last year.
I decided to do two points, and the experience was great.
I knew it would be a bit “light”, since I only did two points, and most people do three for their first time. I was surprised though at how easy it was, and it didn’t seem as uncomfortable as most people make it out to be.
I wondered if this may have been because I’m already pretty clean, so there wasn’t much toxicity to get rid of. I eat pretty well, and I had just done a Liver detox and two Kidney detox’s (using the Andrea Moritz method) earlier in the year.

A few months later, I felt my intuition calling me to do another cleanse.
This time I decided to do four points, since I handled two pretty well the first time.

Four was REALLY intense!
I got exactly what I needed, and I found myself writing on the floor in agony just like I’d expect from a Sapo session.

Since I received two points on my left arm last time, I decided this time to do one on my left arm and three on my right, that way the scars would be even.

Starting the session, I made myself comfortable while the facilitator got everything set up.
When I was ready, she proceeded to burn the points on my arm, and then peeled off the top layer of skin.
This part didn’t hurt as much as I thought it would. It feels sort of like touching a hot stove for a second. It burns a little, but it’s not like getting branded by an iron rod.
This process only uses a wooden stick, so it isn’t very hot, and it only burns the top layer of the skin.

After all the burn points are put in place, the frog venom is applied.
Within a minute, I felt my heart rate increasing, and my entire body started to feel warm.
I could feel the medicine working its way through my veins, coursing through my entire body.
My immune system was cleansing every part of me.

I noticed my throat started swelling up as well, but it didn’t restrict my airflow at all. There was just a general discomfort feeling all over my body, and this continued to increase over the next several minutes.

Before long, I was writhing on the floor.
It wasn’t excruciatingly painful, but it was REALLY uncomfortable. It just felt like a pulsating ache all over my body.
My breathing was deep, and my heart was pounding.
All I could do was tell myself, “surrender to the medicine.” Don’t try to fight it, just surrender and let it flow through you.

My friend was playing a drum throughout this process as well.
At first I thought it sounded nice, but once the medicine really started to kick in I felt that it would actually be better for me to sit in silence. The drum sort of distracts me, and causes my mind to focus on it, instead of the pain I’m feeling.
In a way, this actually takes away from the healing process, because I’m now distracted by trying to feel “better”, instead of allowing myself to feel what I’m experiencing.
The best way to integrate is to be present in the experience, not distract myself or ignore it.
At times, a “helping hand” can actually turn out to be a hindrance unknowingly.

Sitting in silence, I had no choice but to be present in the experience, allowing myself to writhe, and completely feel what I’m feeling.

Moments later, I became increasingly nauseous.
I allowed my body to move with it, rocking back and forth, feeling my stomach tighten up as muscle spasms moved throughout my body.

Soon enough, I started purging.
I was given a bucket, which I vomited into.
All I could do was moan, as I allowed my body to release what it needed to let go of.
The discomfort was throbbing. My whole body was just pulsating with pain.
After 15 minutes, the frog venom was removed from the burn marks, and everything was back to normal.

Afterward, I felt incredibly raw and vulnerable, like a washcloth that had just been wrung.
I needed to sit and relax for several minutes, and I understood why this is called an “ordeal medicine”.

After the Sapo session, I was offered Nunu.
Nunu is a powder made from Tobacco, Cacao, and a couple of other medicinal plants, which is blown into the nose.
The facilitator used this on me by taking a pipe, which looks like something you would use to shoot poison darts if you lived in the jungle. She proceeded to put one end in my nostril, and blew through the other end in order to shoot the powder into my nose.
Within moments, I felt it “open” my head space.
I’d never experienced anything like it before. It seemed like the space around my head just opened up, like a bubble of light just expanded around my entire head.
Simultaneously, I felt very grounded as well. I was more aware of the heavy, solidness of my physical body, which is just what I needed because I’m usually very focused on the higher realms.

I see now why Native cultures consider this Tobacco to be a sacred plant medicine. It’s called Mapacho, which is different than the common Tobacco used in cigarettes.
I’ve always had an aversion to Tobacco and I’ve never wanted to use it because of how damaging it can be to your health. I’m seeing now though, that this kind in particular is actually very beneficial to my spiritual practice, so I’m no longer as afraid of it as I used to be.

Next, I was also offered “Sananga”, which is a type of eye drop liquid, which also comes from a plant in the Amazon. It’s said to relax the eye muscles, as well as stimulate the pineal gland.
The facilitator used one drop in both of my eyes, and immediately I felt a burning sensation, similar to getting juice from a hot pepper in the eye.
Shortly after, I felt this strong surge of energy go through the entire right side of my body, and come out through the bottom of my foot. It seemed like it was clearing all my energy meridians, and removing any blockages I had in place.
I continued feeling it for the next several minutes, so I meditated with it until it faded out.

After all three of these, Sapo, Nunu, and Sananga, I was done.
I felt like I had just given birth, and my entire body had been squeezed clean.
I just felt totally raw and weak, but very relaxed. I spent the rest of the day recovering, and needed to process everything that had just happened.

Over the next few days though, I felt INCREDIBLY light!
I feel like my aura field just reached a whole new level of purity. I keep seeing it totally bright and clear, exactly like a quartz crystal radiating with pure light.

As they say, it’s true that this is an “ordeal medicine”, in the sense that it cleanses you by putting you through a painful process, but after it was all said and done, I can tell you it was totally worth it!
If you have any hurdles or energy blockages, try Sapo. There are other plant medicines you can use to aid in your growing process, but there’s nothing quite like frog venom.
Give it a shot, and you’ll be glad you did.

Remember to surrender to the medicine, and purging is part of the process.


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First Sweat Lodge Experience



I recently had the opportunity to participate in a sweat lodge, which is a form of prayer held by the Native American Church.
This was my first time ever going to a sweat lodge, so I was really excited, and wasn’t sure what to expect.

Upon arriving at the location, I was welcomed very lovingly by several of the church members. I was shown the area where the sweat would be taking place, which is located in the yard behind their house.

The lodge itself was made very simply. Tree branches were used to build the frame, and the entire structure was covered with blankets.
It’s sort of like a teepee, but instead of a pointy top, it has a round dome shape, which perhaps helps to circulate the heat.
In the center is a pit about a foot or two deep, which is where they put hot rocks in order to generate heat.

Here’s how it works – when the sweat lodge begins, everyone makes their way inside, and then several hot rocks are added to the center. These rocks are glowing red, because they’ve been sitting in a fire pit for several hours.
After closing the door, and covering all air holes with blankets, water is then added to the rocks, causing steam to rise, which raises the temperature inside the lodge.
The sweat lodge is considered a prayer meeting, so during this time several songs are sung, and we focus very deeply on prayer.
They also say that the rocks carry our prayers to heaven. This reminded me that I use quartz crystals in a similar manner because of the energy they carry. They can be used as a powerful tool for interacting with other dimensions, and adding fire to the mix causes it to become even more intense.

After each hot rock was added, they also sprinkled a pinch of Cedar on top, which instantly burst into flames due to the intense heat. This filled the entire lodge with a beautiful fragrance.

One aspect of this experience that I really loved, is how each item being used is honored in reverence before God. The entire experience was very spiritually focused, and before every action there was a pause, where we take a moment to give thanks.
Gratitude has been a major theme I’m seeing lately in my own journey, and I’m learning how powerful it can be to stop and say, “thank you”, for everything I’m experiencing.

The sweat lodge was done in four rounds.
The first two rounds lasted roughly 20-30 minutes each. They were tough at first, but once I got used to it I was able to manage.
The third and fourth though, were SUPER intense! They added WAY more water to the rocks this time, and it got so hot we needed to finish much more quickly.
The last two rounds only lasted about 5-10 minutes each, and it was so intense I was DRENCHED in sweat by the very end.

During the very beginning of round one, I wasn’t sure what to expect.
I’d been to a sauna before, but this turned out to be much more intense.
Within the first few minutes I became so hot and uncomfortable, thoughts of quitting were already entering my mind. I knew I didn’t want to give up that easily though, so I decided to stick it out until I absolutely couldn’t take it anymore.
The longer I stayed in, the hotter it got, and all I could think about was how uncomfortable my body was feeling.

The facilitators let us know that we’re welcome to go outside to get some air at any time, especially since overheating is a real issue if you pass out or try to stay longer than your body can safely handle.
It’s also important to keep in mind though, that this is a sweat lodge, so it’s expected that you’re going to be hot and uncomfortable throughout this process. Whenever this happens and you feel the desire to quit, it helps to focus on your loved ones, as well as praying to God, your spirit guides, or guardian angels.

During my time in the lodge, I did just that.
I had a very spiritual experience, and my guides were leading me through the entire process.
I was led to focus on my higher self.

In my mind, going up higher and higher, one dimension at a time, I was led to tune-in to particular states of higher consciousness during each of the succeeding rounds.
This is something I’d already learned to do in my own spiritual practice, but most people will at least do some form of prayer while they’re in the sweat lodge.

Doing this helped a LOT, as well as focusing on my breathing, and generally just being aware of how my body feels. Even when it didn’t feel good because I was REALLY uncomfortable, I was led to focus my attention on whichever part of my body was feeling the discomfort, and breathe INTO it.
It doesn’t help if I try to negate the uncomfortable feeling, or ignore/run from it. The way to find wholeness is to breathe into it. Be completely present with what you’re experiencing, and give yourself permission to be where you are.

Round 1 and 2 took a little getting used to, but once I was acclimated it felt pretty easy.
Round 3 and 4 though were on an entirely different level!

It was so intense I could hardly breathe. The air itself was painful, and I wanted to get away from it. I actually had to open my mouth and pant like a dog because of how intensely hot it was. I was sweating profusely, but the best I could do was just focus on being present.
I naturally have a tendency to tense everything up, and scrunch up my face when I’m in pain, but during this process I was led intuitively to relax every muscle in my body.
Starting with my face, then releasing my hands, and eventually my entire body, I made sure every single part of me was completely relaxed.
Doing so, I found peace. It didn’t matter how insanely hot the air around me was, internally I was completely calm, and I went into a deeply relaxed meditative state.

Throughout this journey, it felt like the discomfort of the heat was a spiritual dying process, and we were being reborn with new life. That’s actually what they say the sweat lodge represents, it’s the womb of the Earth, and the entire ceremony is a rebirthing process.

In between each round, they pull up some of the blankets to let some fresh air in, giving us a chance to cool down.
After the final round was complete, I eagerly anticipated taking a breath of fresh air, and once I’d done so, it was without a doubt the most perfect breath I’d taken in my entire life.
I was so happy just to breathe again, I couldn’t even express how thankful I was!

After making our way out of the sweat lodge and getting reacquainted with the cool air, my experience seemed to become even more intense.
I immediately started feeling dizzy, and it seemed like I was about to go unconscious. My vision started blurring, and in my ears I could hear a ringing sound.
For some reason though, I never felt like passing out while I was actually inside the sweat lodge. It wasn’t until after stepping outside that I became light headed all of a sudden.
This may have been because I was sitting down the whole time, so standing up suddenly may have caused a shift in blood pressure.

I took a moment to kneel on the ground until I got my bearings straight.
While this was happening, everything got really intense all of a sudden. My vision faded and all I could see was a ring of light. I was fine after a moment, but I waited until I was feeling better to get up again.

Afterward, we took some time to rest and soak in the experience.
There was food prepared, so we went into the house and had a feast.

All in all, it was an amazing experience.
I’m sure the way I explained everything may have sounded a bit off to anyone who’s more familiar with Native American Culture, because I didn’t know what everything was called or how to describe it properly. I had never done anything like this before though, so I’m happy to explain it the best I know how.
I’m still learning, so I’m eager to experience more, and I look forward to going to my next sweat lodge again very soon.

Thank you to everyone who facilitated this, I look forward to seeing you again.